Tuesday, January 20, 2009

New Found Appriciation for Life

I couldn't find the perfect picture for all of the things that I have been feeling. This picture was taken at the Baton Rouge Temple the day after I got out of the hospital. It was Aaron's first temple trip(more to come on that). As many of you know I have struggled with Crohn's disease for about 5 years now. This year has been so very hard on me. Eliza was so sick for so long and as soon as we got her well my body took a turn for the worst. I have struggled really hard since the beginning of NOvember. I stopped eating for months because it just hurt so bad. I have just gotten out of the hospital again on Saturday after being in for 3 days. My heart is feeling so many things it is just so hard to put into words. I was at deaths door and the Lord saw fit to save my life. THe last night before going to the ER I had such clarity(and my brain had been so deprived of food that I couldn't think well for a long time). The Lord told me to get to the ER and do it NOW. As soon as I said it I got even worse which I didn't think could even be possible. My friends and family have watched me loose so much weight and I have become someone I don't know. I stayed in the hospital for 3 days and every day I feel like I have more and more energy. There have been so many people serving me and my family through this time my heart is overflowing with gratidute. THey have come and cleaned my home(which hasn't done in I don't remember how long) THey have washed my clothes and brought countless meals in and taken over the children. Matthew has had playing buddies and friends to hang out with and he has had so much fun. I have learned so many things from being this sick. I am doing what I have always wanted to do as a mother but I need to remember that DAna is just as important as my children are and I need to take time every day for me to reflect on my health and keep in check with it. I can't put into words the Christlike attitude these sisters in my ward have had in so willingly being able to help and they do it with no regard to themselves. I am actually scared to say it since I have been sick for so long but I feel like my health is on the road to recovery and I pray that I am not wrong about that. I love my family and the joy that they are to me. WE all get caught up in the day to day that I was not taking time to enjoy them. I was just enduring and we can't do that any more. When we pass on from this life we will not have the worries and schedules we do and one day I will look forward to enjoying every minute but on this earth I will steal all the chances I get to slow down and be a Heavely Family. I already new this but the Lord knows me and loves me. There are so many people and he knows ME.

11 comments:

The Longnecker Zoo said...

Yes, He does Dana. What a treasure you are to our family. I am greatful He spared you and greatful your body is on the mend. You mean the world to me Dana and I am thankful you are my sister. Bless those dear sisters for their support and love. I love them because they love you!

Angeline and Matt said...

Your very sweet Dana and I know you've always known the Lord Looks after you. I hope the Chrones can get under control, your diet and medication isn't working? What causes you to be be hospitalized? Love you and miss you and hope your feeling better (By the way, you look great, even though I'm sure you'd rather be eating normally!)

Dana said...

Angeline, I have had a really tough time finding good doc's down here. The first time was because I was in so much pain and couldn't eat and this time was because I wasn't keeping anything down. I spent a full week where I was throwing everything up and more. I was severely dehydrated and my levels were so whack the doctor was shocked. I feel like I am on the road to recovery and the meds seem to really be helping. I have eaten more in a week than I was able to in a good 3 months at least. I would rather be fat as all get out than so sick and skinny though.

Lissa said...

You really had me scared for awhile...STOP that!! JK
I hope and pray that you recover well and gain strength in each new day. Once you get back into the swing of things remember to take moments for yourself to build yourself spiritually, mentally, & physically. Heavenly Father does love you...immensely! Thank you for allowing so many the opportunity to reach out and become more charitable!
Love ya!

7 of us said...

Your words are so beautiful. You made me appreciate my body that I spend so much time wishing was better. Thank you for reminding me what is truly most important in this life. Keep mending!!

The Kent Family in Kenai said...

Amen sister! We love you too and I am so glad to hear that you are feeling better. I hope and pray that all will continue to go well for you and your cute family :)

Bond Bedlam said...

So... Very Greatful that you are on the mend. So greatful to all the sisters in Ocean Springs that truely are the Saviors hands. Kiss and hug them all for me! The Lord has answered our prayers and I am so... greatful. I am also thankful that you are my daughter. I love you. Mom

Dana said...

Tom read this and said I know that it doesn't represent anything that I have truly felt. There really are no earthly words to describe the feelings I have been having!! So true!!!!

longnecker said...

Dana,

I am thinking of you and praying for you. I know that in the darkest hours is when we feel the closest to the Savior and that is the only thing that can bring peace amidst fear and pain.

Please take care of yourself and let others serve you, that is what strengthens a ward family.

Candi

Nikki said...

Dana,
So glad to hear you are on the mend. How wonderful to have such amazing people in your life who love you and support you. We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

klonghall said...

You have been in all of our thoughts and prayers of late. I'm glad you are feeling better. I'm glad you found good doctors. I'm especially glad you can eat again. Friends who help during a crisis are heaven sent. You would do it for them, and I'm sure you'll get a chance to be on the other end of service again.