I couldn't find the perfect picture for all of the things that I have been feeling. This picture was taken at the Baton Rouge Temple the day after I got out of the hospital. It was Aaron's first temple trip(more to come on that). As many of you know I have struggled with Crohn's disease for about 5 years now. This year has been so very hard on me. Eliza was so sick for so long and as soon as we got her well my body took a turn for the worst. I have struggled really hard since the beginning of NOvember. I stopped eating for months because it just hurt so bad. I have just gotten out of the hospital again on Saturday after being in for 3 days. My heart is feeling so many things it is just so hard to put into words. I was at deaths door and the Lord saw fit to save my life. THe last night before going to the ER I had such clarity(and my brain had been so deprived of food that I couldn't think well for a long time). The Lord told me to get to the ER and do it NOW. As soon as I said it I got even worse which I didn't think could even be possible. My friends and family have watched me loose so much weight and I have become someone I don't know. I stayed in the hospital for 3 days and every day I feel like I have more and more energy. There have been so many people serving me and my family through this time my heart is overflowing with gratidute. THey have come and cleaned my home(which hasn't done in I don't remember how long) THey have washed my clothes and brought countless meals in and taken over the children. Matthew has had playing buddies and friends to hang out with and he has had so much fun. I have learned so many things from being this sick. I am doing what I have always wanted to do as a mother but I need to remember that DAna is just as important as my children are and I need to take time every day for me to reflect on my health and keep in check with it. I can't put into words the Christlike attitude these sisters in my ward have had in so willingly being able to help and they do it with no regard to themselves. I am actually scared to say it since I have been sick for so long but I feel like my health is on the road to recovery and I pray that I am not wrong about that. I love my family and the joy that they are to me. WE all get caught up in the day to day that I was not taking time to enjoy them. I was just enduring and we can't do that any more. When we pass on from this life we will not have the worries and schedules we do and one day I will look forward to enjoying every minute but on this earth I will steal all the chances I get to slow down and be a Heavely Family. I already new this but the Lord knows me and loves me. There are so many people and he knows ME.
I am a very busy mother of 7 wonderful children. So my life is never dull. We are quite the zoo I am realizing but who doesn't love the zoo right? This blog has become my journal so you will see the good along with the ugly but thats our life.